Took me years, but I finally started buying stimulants illegally and yeah, they're life changing.
They're not the ultimate solution, only useful when I need to focus on something and just do it™, but it's the perfect tool to train my brain.
I can see now why kids are put on Adderall/etc then they stop taking them in adulthood. It always seemed very strange to me, but yeah, they help create habits that will stick for the rest of your life (starting work, focusing, just doing stuff that needs to be done).
The sooner you build them, the better. 30's is a quite late, but I hope not too late.
In usa it is very easy to get prescribed. Obviously you would need to lie about your non-prescribed use but if you’re willing to get them illegally that shouldn’t be an issue.
There are prescribers online. Even with no insurance it’s about $5/day after paying the doctor, counselor, and prescription (using GoodRx coupon)
The only thing that’s ever worked for me is working on things I’m truly interested in, crushing anxiety due to a deadline coming up, and drugs.
Getting adult adhd diagnosis in my late 30s has been life changing.
Make sure your goals are your own and your tasks meet the goals.